right now, it’s a tame wolf.

“There are wolves in there, prowling behind the words. Sometimes they come out in the pages. Sometimes they wait until you close the book. The musky wolf-smell can sometimes be masked by the aromatic scent of rosemary. Understand, these are not today-wolves, slinking grayly in packs through deserted places. These are the dire-wolves of old, huge and solitary wolves that could stand their ground against grizzlies.” – Neil Gaiman on reading Gene Wolfe’s work.

my novel in progress is progressing, sometimes at a good rate, sometimes slowly. this particular first draft is interesting as i’m finally accepting that i’m a ‘discovery’ writer and not knowing what is going to happen is the key to keeping me motivated. i write to find out what happens next. (long hand, yellow legal pads, sharp pencil, btw)

second draft occurs when i transcribe the thing. as i type i edit, changing dialog, tweaking turns of phrase, embellishing to make things more cohesive, more descriptive, just ‘more better’, as it were.

that’s when the skeleton wolf, the one that is tentative and a bit timid as i find my way through the narrative, gets to finally roam free, growing flesh and sinew and blood and becoming whole, revealing the power and flow within its potential. and possibly ripping my throat out in the process.

i know a lot of other writers detest the editing process, they fly, wings spread wide in the first draft, which is great if you can pull it off. for me, the poetry has to have a form to hang its skin on. story shapeshifting, in my world, is a bloody, messy process and without those bones to build on, it would all turn to dead meat on a slab instead of a living, breathing thing.

so right now, my wolf is docile as a puppy, sniffing my hand when i offer it, following along as we wander the paths of narrative. but he’s growing fast, and before i know it i’ll have to start watching out as the playful nips turn into serious bites.

i just can’t wait until his big boy teeth grow in.

A bit of light reading…

I’ve added a few new bits of writing to the site. There are two stories that have been published recently over in the Stories section, a new run of drabbles over in Flash Fiction, and I’ve also added the latest editorial from Luna Station Quarterly.

Please enjoy them!

Long, strange trip…

NaNoWriMo was a bust, but then you knew that, right? I knew going in it was not going to be a full-on effort and that’s okay. I did actually manage to get a fair amount of words down.

The reason for my extended absence, though, was not that I was wallowing in a pit of despair having failed to meet that November 30th deadline. No, instead I became gainfully and full-time employed once more and the period of adjustment back to the working world was a bit longer than expected.

So, I am now revving up the writing machine again and I’m ready to see what comes out next.

I’ll be posting a few more stories up here, having published in Dark Valentine Magazine and Eternal Haunted Summer in the recent interim. I’m proud of both works and pleased as punch that they were seen by a larger audience. I highly recommend both publications, they publish stellar work.

I’m also looking forward to getting more of my work out into the world. Towards that end, I’ll be editing more of the 52 short stories I wrote last year and sending them off. I’m also working on a number of essays, mostly on web design, that I’ll be publishing online and reposting here as well.

And I’ll be sure to keep you all updated here on a more regular basis in the future.

Slow and steady and I’ll lose the race…

So, my personal word count goal is 30k. If I can get that much done on this novel by the end of NaNo, I will be a happy camper.

I’m still working to find the story, to explore the characters, and to figure out how they’re all going to get from point a to point b. This is a good thing. It means I did nowhere near enough planning and I’m flying by the seat of my pants. That’s when the good stuff starts to happen.

Seems I work best when I only know the next one or two steps, but no further. Also helpful? Having three main protagonists. If I get bored or stuck with one, I can always jump to another. I think that was my problem with the last NaNo I did, I only had one main storyline going on and when I got stuck there was nothing to do but wait for the next bit to come to me.

But for now, I’ve written enough for today and I’m off to get some sleep.

3054 / 50000

It has begun…

So NaNoWriMo started yesterday. I got a few words written at Midnight and a few more written before bed last night. The rest of my week looks to be fairly quiet, so I’m hopeful I can get into a groove for a few days.

I pondered my characters while on the train this morning. The time was productive and I was able to sort one of my characters out a bit better. I hadn’t figured her out and she’s still a work in progress, but at least I feel a little closer to her than I did this morning.

But, enough typing here. I’ll claim right now that I’m going to try and update regularly here, but inevitably life (and the writing itself) will interfere. If nothing else, I’ll try to post daily word counts, starting here:

406 / 50,000

It’s Official

I’m a NaNoWriMo Rebel.

I started working on a story this afternoon. I’m going to keep going with it and whatever word count I get during NaNo will be my wordcount. I’ve won twice, I’ve proven I can do it. After a bit of time off, I just want to be involved again and tap into the energy and enthusiasm that group produces.

If for some reason I finish the story (not likely, but with two weeks to go before it starts, who knows) then I’ll get back to my unfinished shorts and work on those. In the end, if by some fluke I manage to make 50k, you can bet your ass I’m downloading that certificate!

So there we go. Now I have an excuse to make NaNoWriMo icons and things and go on the forums. 😛

This is a test, right?

I think I threw away a piece of writing and cannot get it back.

This is going to be a lesson for myself and anyone else who reads this. DO NOT throw away any of your writing. Just don’t do it. It will come back and bite you in the ass.

In today’s world of terabyte hard drives, there is no reason to ever delete a piece of writing. From now on, that is my mantra. Even if it’s on paper, that’s what they make file cabinets for, right?

See, this little thing I wrote, it sucked. Badly. So badly that I thought I would never ever use it and so I trashed it, emptied the trash can, and hoped I’d never hear from it again.

Now, months later, I realized that it is a missing piece in the puzzle of the story I’m going to start writing. now it is gone forever.

Yes, I remember what happened, in general, so the idea is still there. Yes, in rewriting it, it will inevitably come out better than it did the first time, now that I know what it’s going to be used for.

I’m just frustrated as it’s really background material and I don’t want to take the time to write it over again. I have a very difficult time writing something twice. It just doesn’t want to come back out of my brain a second time.

So now I have this naggling little itch at the back of my brain. There is a slim, slim chance that it’s somewhere lost on my hard drive or on some bit of paper somewhere in my files (I can’t clearly remember anymore if it was typed or hand-written), but I have to let it go.

So, I release you, bit of writing! I let you go, may you come back to me again sometime soon. I will be here, building on your foundation while I await your return.